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Name: Eden
Location: Chicago/New Zealand, United States
Birthday: 10/20/1920
Gender: Female
Interests: Someday Making my Own music,making cloths,reading&writing. I want to get into a band"Soon". I love to sing and act. Dancing.Go clubin,Hanging out with friends,Talking on the phone,Modeling.Cooking,Watching Family Guy
Expertise: I'm a really good at singing,decorating,Dancing,Cooking,Making people laugh,one liners,being there when people need me the most,the wildest one at the Party,the sweet loveing one when I'm in relashonship being a cute kinky bitch all at the same time,And I'm Sarcastic...
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Devilishbbt
Yahoo:  Devilishbbt
Yahoo:  Wickeddout
AIM:  Rainhavoc90
Member Since:
6/12/2004
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| Dear death,
Good bye all, good bye to all the bitches I hate and all the bastered I once wanted. I got a new Xanga and I'm ahppy to leave this sad ass depressing one. Fuck you all. Yet I hope you fuckers the best. I'm moving on with my life so this will be my last anf final entry.
Today was a wild ass day. Not as a fun, krazy time but as in crazy and cunfusing. I found so much stuff about the people I go to school with. I dislike so many of them. Thier so self centered, hurtful, asholes, imature and just plain ignorant to the real world. Today was the hocomign "Dance" It was the lamest thing I've ever been to. I was going to dane and try to at least enjoy myself with Ali but I just didn't feel comfotable with those people. But you know what I need to grow as a person come out.I noticed that I had no problem dacing at the Synergy but at the Danhde it was odd because I diske them all some much I don't feel like I should I open my self around them. I need to keep the words of Gewn Stefani in my head" Take a chance you stupid hoe" Life is to short and this is my last year. Fuck it theres all ways next time.And I'm so happy I had Ali with me. It's great to know who your real friends are....
"Take a chance you just might grow, take a chance you stupid hoe, What you waiting for" Gwen you have never been more right. I want more out of life. I'm moving on and attemptting to grow up and gain more confidence. I'mn a big girl and I didn't rep my fellow big girls well what so ever. I want to go to High school and forget and forgive all the bitches at Ogden. Thier poitless, sad, meaningless and I can do better than that. So what am I waiting for? I need to Rep who I am have fun andf do what make me happy. Because big girls really do have more fun... | | |
| Dear Death,
Today was a simi Great day. I sorta kept to myself. Alot of people asked me why I wasnt out there and tlakitive like I normally Am but the truth is I've grown out of that. It's over ratedand it lame. Only people that feel the need to talk out and have all the spot light on them or have the dier need to all ways have something to say are really sad people on the inside and are really imature and needy and honestly need to get a fuckin life. I never really noticed those tings about myself into I started to listen to others and see were there coming from. You learn alot about people. You get to see all thier reactions and facical exspresions, and you get to kow the real people in class and you get to know your real "friends" sometimes it's really disapointing posibly liberating,sometimes both. To get to know who you really want as a friend and who is truely on your level. But when it all comes down to it you don't want to forget who you are. And I did forget who I am and thats why I want to get rid of all the vapid, shalow, inscure, ass holes, I call "Friends" I learned alot today. I tryed out for a solo in chorus. I think I just might Surprize a few people. It's all ways fun doing that. Isnt it fun making someone look stupid, It's even better when you prove them wrong, and make your self into a better person at the same time... | | |
| Dear Death,
School is intersting. That's all I can posibly say, It's just fucking interesting. I can't say it's bad and I can't say it's goood. But I don't care to much for the people there and I can wait to Garduate. People there are just fuckin off. I act the way I do to them because I'm descusted by them. I'm not perfect and I make mistakes all the time. But I'm not like most of them. I can honestly say that I would rather spend my birthday alone than with people at school. I mean yeah their my "friends" but they sure in the hell have a funny way in showing it. And they wounder why I treat them or act the way I do around them. Why am I so distant? Lets see maybe it';s becuse I don't want to be around you, or maybe it's not you maybe its that asshole in 4th period that I just can't get why their such an asshole and they ticked me off and now I just don't wanna talk. I mean someone a girl just don'ty knw who her real friends are and who her real enemys are. I guess I'm going threw this little period were I'm just steping back and getting rid of alll the dead weight. I've been having it hard the past few years and all I want is to do the right thing. And I want these next few months to go by smothly. And I also want to go into High School with a fresh perspective. And having dead "friends" just wont do. I know I sound like an evil bitch but I want whats best and For once I want to have me head on stright so to speak. I hope one day they will understand that I'm not trying to be a whore aout things. Nore do I care. Over the years I've learned not to. I need to focus on whats important. Sadly my grades,losing weight for graduation,and having just 1 to 2 good friends. Not like it will mean anything I'm graduating soon and everyone is leaving and only a few will keep up. I wan't to make new friends. And honestly I don't like the friends I have now. From what I know thier back stabers and they don't seam to like me very much so, Why bother... | | |
| Dear Death,
Today was cool. I found out some pretty cool things about me. I think when I finish my secrect "Dujure XL" Plan I want to start writing my own guide/book for big girls.. I don't know if I'll ever get it published. I'm trying to be realistic, but writing it is the easy part. I had a really dramtic morning. I had to sty home from school today. Not that I'm complaining but there was a lot of crying,wild tangents and I hate my body going on followed by a retarted ass show by Oapra. She should have picked a better topic if I was going to stay home,something life changing. She had a show on Tatum Oneil. I think I discovered alot today and I feel like I've done alot of things in my life that I should not have donw but I would not change them,them make me who I am. And I'll fill in the rest of my info on the right side of this skin latter.I know this skin makes me look reallylame and skick.They finally made a video for that damn Lindsay Lohan video.I've been waiting for 2 months now.No one listens to me when I said the song was going to be a bigish.Now it's on MTV. Ali kinda diged the lyrics. But anyways it's a good club hit. Puts me in the mood to dance.I can't wait to the end of this month... | | |
| Dear Death,
Today was kinda fun in a odd way. I tryed to fix my eye brows in a atemp to fix them up from the last time I fucked them up on Saturday.But today I somehow did a even suckyer job and fucked them up again.How great ,I just can't wait to go back to school now. I'm fine after me and my moms fight.I'm over it.I know how to make the best of it, I just have to work on myself. I'm on a new diet.I really wanna fit into this cute dress I saw. But it's like 4 sizes smaller so theres alot of work to be done.I also can';t wait to gradute.Thiss shit is taking to god damn long. Any ways I'm gonna make it. Only one more year left and I'm gone bitches. I'll just keep my head up. I hope the eye brow thing won't get me picked on at school.That would be really lame... | | |
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